It is alarming how fast life is flying by.
One minute my heart is a flutter on the bus as Christian are going to college classes...the next we are celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary.
The night of our anniversary we had a babysitter come watch our kids. As I drove her home I told her how I felt I was just her age...not that long ago. I left out the part that I had met Christian about the age she is.
Sometimes when I glance across the room I see that teenage boy that I crushed so hard on. How did this happen?! How did Christian become mine?!
I never thought in a million years that I would actually be able to marry Christian when I was young. It wasn't even something I tried to think about.
When we accidentally ended up at the same college after transferring from other schools it seemed destiny.
I still remember waking early...so excited for school...which if you know me isn't normal - I am not a morning person. I would feel my heart leap when I saw his white car to come pick me up for Astronomy class.
One day in class as we were seated in the planetarium he wrote: Я тебя люблю.
I begged him to tell me what it meant for hours. Finally he shyly admitted it was 'I love you' in Russian.
The day I placed myself in the heaviest dress I had ever worn and committed to love him forever...was dream-like.
The day was beautiful...almost too perfect. The day before had rained and I had accepted that it would on my perfect day as well...and it did...but after pictures were taken; a tender mercy.
As the clouds rolled in we started our first dance together as husband and wife...
I didn't really notice. I was just with Christian.
It poured not much after this and I stood in the rain for part of it in my wedding dress...I was only going to wear that dress once.
I remember in the haze of Christian the panic of everyone worried that it was raining.
It didn't matter to me...the most important part of the day had already happened...we were together forever.
I have had to remind myself over all these years when things become difficult, how I felt that day. Nothing was going to take away how I felt about Christian and how excited I was to be his wife. I want that feeling my whole life. When we are old and wrinkled hands clasped we will still remember how excited we were to be together and never let it fade away.
Christian became my best friend when we were so young. We drifted as he went to college and we both moved...but somehow we kept crossing paths.
I even tried to not care for him...but he is obnoxiously loveable (even in fights I can't stay mad long...which is good, but very annoying at the moment). I just knew someone would snatch him up and I would be heartbroken.
I still think how miraculous it is that we did end up together after everything. I know Heavenly Father placed him in my path. I never imagined how hard life would be...but I wouldn't want to go through it without Christian...
...it certainly is never dull with him.
...Movie I made for Christian...with the song we danced to at our reception.