I love the person He is showing me I am capable of being - more than the person I was trying to be on my own.
I have been feeling better than I thought I could - spiritually, emotionally, and physically. My friend and I ran over 4 miles yesterday. I was so excited. It feels so good to accomplish something that has always been so challenging to me.
My emotional state has been getting better. I still have hard times, but I am seeing an improvement. I look at baby boys without thinking about little "D" as I affectionately call him now. It doesn't hurt all the time to see babies and hear them cry. Just once in a while do I have a heart wrenching experience.
Spiritually I have been feeling so close to my Savior and Heavenly Father. My heart is so full of the love they offer me. I know that I am able to continue on because of them.
Overall I am doing really good. I am quite honestly surprised when I have so many good days in a row. What a huge blessing having each good day come. I even appreciate the bad days. Though they are painful, I feel closer to Declan. So in a strange way they are a blessing as well.
