I know my kids are aching for a baby in the home. I never knew how much Bryce was depending on his brother coming home. He is always asking about him and wondering why he isn't with us. He seems okay with the answers I give, but I can tell he asks because he misses his brother. Any chance he has to bring up Declan he does.
Bryce has been having a hard time sleeping in his bed. I usually get annoyed and tell him to stay in his bed, but now I don't have the heart. Last night he begged to sleep in my bed. I told him that would be all right. It was sweet to curl up next to him. I got smacked a few times, but I know there will be a day when he doesn't want to cuddle anymore.
Emmy started to cry last night and I went in to check on her. I helped her lay back down and softly brushed through her sweet curls. She relaxed and I told her how much I loved her. I never really minded getting up with my kids, but I especially cherish it now. I find myself waking even though I usually don't need to. Sub-consciously I think my mind knows I should be getting up with a baby. So I check on my little Emmy and my sweet Bryce. I love watching them sleep.
I know I say it all the time, but children are such a gift. I am grateful for my kids each day. I pray with them and on my own thanking my Heavenly Father each prayer. I love my kids so much sometimes I think I might burst from the love. Emmy just came up to me and hugged my arm. I can't get enough of that sweetheart!I am forever grateful that I was sent Bryce when I wasn't sure I was cut out to be a mom. He was a wonderful surprise. I was terrified of being a mom, but Heavenly Father knew better. He knew that it would bring me so much joy and increase my capacity for love. I think it also has made me love Christian more. I will forever remember him holding each of our precious children. It is etched in my heart. The day Bryce was born I knew that the tiny baby in Christian's arms was a beautiful creation of our love.
