This time of year usually brings the best out of people. This year it seems the world is a lot more loving than typical of the season. I am sure that is due to your absence and people's ability to love us through it.
I love how magical Christmas is. As a child it was because of the gifts left by Santa and under the beautiful glittering tree. Now it has nothing to do with anything that can be wrapped and placed under a Christmas tree. I love this time of year because it reminds me of the love of God. It proves that people can love selflessly if they only try. It teaches me that to truly love someone means loving them before yourself - which our Heavenly Father did when He gave His only Begotten Son.
The feelings that wrap around my heart now are hope. Hope for my future, hope for your sister's and brother's future, and hope for everything coming to pass that has been promised.I have taken the best parts of you and wrapped them in my heart and I will carry them on this wonderfully crazy journey of life. You will never be forgotten, that would be as if I could lose half my heart and never miss it.
This Christmas was to be your first and instead we are to celebrate without your sweet tiny baby face brightening our day. How I wish and wait for the day to hold you and share those quite moments that I wasn't allowed to have here.
I love you sweet boy and always will! Happy Holidays Declan!
always,
Mommy