Friendship

I have moved most of my life. As a kid I was always feeling that just as I got to be close to someone I was ripped away. It was devastating to me. I don't regret the friends I had, but once I was gone I saw their lives continue without me and it stung - a lot. It was probably one of the hardest things about my childhood.

I struggled as a teenager to make friends since I had finally given up trying. My heart did not seem too invested after a certain point. It made life lonely, but it was how I felt I needed to survive.

Even as an adult I have moved - a lot! I have never stayed anywhere longer than a year the 8 years I have been married. It has been challenging. But this time is different since I have Christian by my side. I was lucky to bring him along with me - the only friend I have been able to keep close.

The only friends that I was able to tote around with me as we moved around the country were my sisters. How I would've survived most of those moves without my sisters - especially my oldest sister - is unknown.

But now all my sisters are far away so now I have only Christian - which honestly has been really good for our relationship. I feel we have been so close since we moved away from family. But it is sad to have family and friends so far away.

I can't promise my kids that we will never move, but I hope it is infrequently.