I have had Emmy use Declan's bedding since we lost him. Today I folded them up and placed them on her shelf. It was like a new beginning. I am ready to take Declan with me...and thrive.
The pieces of my heart are coming back together. As they mend I feel like they have been altered...never to forget how they shattered. I have peace that everything will be okay. The reassurance from my Father in Heaven that I can indeed enjoy life and keep Declan apart of me.
The ache in my heart has slowed...the healing balm is starting to take effect. I am very grateful for this. I want Declan's absence to create a better family in the wake of his death....not sink us.
My friend's little angel baby's birthday is tomorrow. My heart is with her as she remembers her little Kooper, who would be 3 tomorrow. I am so grateful for her. She has been there for me, listening to my whining, pain, and frustrations...understanding where I am coming from. Thank you Kami! You'll never know how much you have helped these past 9 months.
