My angel...

Today would be nine months for Declan.  It is strange that his only cousin his age has her 1st birthday today.  I had been anticipating a hard day today.  I thought I would be depressed, but strangely I forgot what day it is.  My sister gave me a loving text telling me how she hoped today was good.  I thought it was sweet, but didn't put together why she had sent it.  I thought she had been telling me that because I am waiting for results back from my doctor to see if I am okay.

Then I got an email from a fellow angel baby mommy.  She wished me a good day for Declan's 9 month angel birthday.

Oh, right.  It's that day.  The day I had been dreading.  Hmm...that is strange I had even forgotten.  Well I suppose that is good.  I am having a relatively good day...other than the fact I am exhausted since my daughter is sick and not sleeping well...and other than the pain I still have from my c-section...I'm good.

I have a lot of peace and comfort today.  I have been grumpy and extremely annoyed lately.  So this is refreshing to no be throwing a childish tantrum every time I have a rough day.  Luckily today is not that day...at least so far.  I thought of doing a balloon release but my kids are sick and I figure we had one over Memorial Day.  I think I'll wait for his 1st birthday.


Happy 1st Birthday Ashley!  Happy 9 months my sweet angel!  We miss you each day...and wish you were with us.