I typically don't blog twice in one day. But today is an interesting day. I have had a lot of time to think today and I still have things bouncing around in my head and it almost drive me nuts if I don't write them down.
I checked my email today, which I hadn't since Friday. I got an email from my sister-in-law and she asked me what I wanted from Santa. Before I could stop it, the thought, "Declan," entered my mind. I think deep down that's all I really want. I could get a brand new car and still just want my little boy.
Never before have I really understood the true meaning of Christmas. I want people not things this year. I want to be surrounded by my husband and our children - all our children.
I am looking so forward to be with my family this Christmas, but I am also secretly dreading the day. I think of how much I want little Declan in my arms and it aches more than I can express.
I know there are a lot of lonely hearts out there this Christmas. It breaks my heart that there are so many longing and missing.
If I could have one thing that I could actually have this Christmas is that each of the broken hearts could be wrapped in our Savior. That they could feel the healing power of our loving Savior and have a beautiful day.
I know it sounds completely overstated and cliche but I do want Peace for Christmas. Peace in our hearts. Peace in our homes. Peace in our futures - even if the world is a crazy place.
