I was talking to a good friend, the other day, about trials. We talked about even though times are difficult there is so much mercy for us as we go through them. I felt that this trial has been tailor made for me. I see where Heavenly Father's mercy stepped in where it would have been much too difficult for me to handle.Christian and I were talking of this also and we know that this burden has been carried for us by our Savior. The few moments we have felt some of the weight of this trial and we ask for help, it comes so fast and so strongly it is overwhelming. My parent's Bishop made some remarks at Declan's funeral that have stuck with me. I'm not sure the exactly wording, but he basically said that the Savior wants to help us with our trials and he does not walk, but runs to our aid. I have felt this so often in the last three weeks.
The only One that came here and never needed an Atonement carried such a burden for me and my pain. It amazes me. The minuscule pain I have felt compared to the pain of the Atonement has made me think so much of how hard that must have been. The times I have felt the loss so much I can't breathe I think of our Savior who felt that times an infinite degree.
I am so grateful for Him, who loves me so much and knew I had to go through these hard times, but made a way for me to go through them while he held my hand through it. I know I couldn't do this alone and I feel Him guide me alone, showing me how I can do this and not just survive, but become a better and stronger person through it.