Patience?

When I was a teenager my friend's dad often teased her that in Heaven when they were handing out patience his daughter couldn't wait in line to receive it.  I thought it was funny at the time, but I've come to realize that I was probably standing beside her and we decided to skip out early.

I'm impatient.

When I want something...why can't it be now?

I have a really hard time waiting to give gifts...often Christian has received his gifts several days early.

So when it comes to the important things...I'm not much better.

The saying, "Good things come to those who wait..." is very true, but I often don't heed that advice.

Christian on the other hand is VERY patient.  So patient sometimes I want to pull my hair out.  His methodical thinking and analyzing every side before acting is sometimes exhausting to me...but something I must learn.

Losing Declan was my first real wake up call...I'm going to have to wait to fully enjoy this child.  What?!

That's a long time to wait...maybe in forever it doesn't seem so, but in my mortal mind...it's very, very long.

How can one develop patience...funny but I think it takes a while...so in-turn to become patient...I must be patient?  Chicken and Egg dilemma?

I have often thought about our Savior...who is the most patient being.  It is almost unfathomable how patient he truly is...always in control, never rash, unfair, or unreasonable.  It is my quest to become better in that aspect...to take a breath, realize that I cannot make things happen in my own time, but must wait for His time.  Knowing that everything has its season is easy to say, not so easy to actually implement in my life.

So whatever seasons are to come, I need to remember that is what my Father in Heaven had intended for me...and that is and must be okay.